Slice of Life

 Hi my peeps!

I feel like I wanna update something about my life. A bit at least, I guess. Let see how far it goes, haha. I hadnt posted anything in 2024 maybe because it was a rollercoaster for me. very. The year where I was finding my true self and what I want in life, as an adult for sure. 

If you read my post in 2023, I was hoping on this particular guy but maybe we were intertwined then gently drifted apart. He was a good man, gentle, lively and supportive. I hope he is happy with his life right now. Can say it here since I believe nobody in my circle can read this because they never know hihi. Love you guys. This blog is just part of my life and I can't imagine if they read my online diaries. It's so shamefulll! As for me, I will try to update at least once a month, so that I can read it later. It is fun to read my writes lol.

I am in a relationship with a man that I never think of that I will ever fall for him. I called it Allah's plan. Went around and knew a lot of people yet the one (hope so) is in front of me. We watched each other's downfall haha. Pray that everything will go well as planned. Actually, I don't really know what to write since it has been yearsss I lose the writing skills. Oh btw, I will be an English teacher. Yes, you hear it right! Inshallah, I will graduate in July and will be posted to primary school around this year. Who believe the ones who think that she will never pursue teaching school, now close to become a teacher? Again, as I said Allah's plan. 

May 2025 will have a lot of good news, for us. 

See you <3

CREATING SPOTIFY PLAYLISTS AS COPING MECHANISM

 Assalamualaikum and hi everyone!

Hope you guys are doing great no matter how life treats you. I always remember that at the end of the day, we only have ourselves. No need to be hard on yourself oki?

It's 3.00pm and I supposed to go through all of the notes for tomorrow's paper but I keep being distracted with my phone. A habit I guess. I rarely study in the noon especially at three yet I have to because tonight will be very short to study? 

Sometimes I wonder, how strong I was facing all those heartbreaks since I was the only one hurting. Listening to sad songs help me to cry myself even more. No worries, I'm all good now. I am only could laugh whenever I listen to sad songs nowadays remembering how funny I was being sad over man? skskskskks ugh.

This year. I have created A LOT of playlist with the better name on it. SAD, HAPPY, CUTE, BUTTERFLIES? yes i have all that hiks. 

Nobody read this but if you can, pls follow me on spotify for more playlist hshshs

xoxo,

Iffah

Turning 21 on 29

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone!

I hope you guys are doing good because I am not. I am feeling confused lately between love and attachment. 

Like why it is happened? 

What should I do? 

Why people treated me like that? 

Turning 21 was good, alhamdulillah I still have my family and friends. Personally, birthday does not matter. I don't mind if people doesn't wish me. But if they do, I appreciate it so much. Maybe because I think that everyday is my birthday? haha. I love spending quality time with the ones I love. It means so much to me. More than thousand expensive things that you could ever buy. 

I am going home this week, celebrating my birthday with family? Yes, for sure. I really miss the home's smell. I miss everyone at home. Call me clingy I don't care. I realized that I rely on my family so much, I can't even live without giving a call to anyone. 

Nothing much to say but wanna thanks for those who stays, make my life better. 

xx

We plan, He decides

 Hi everyone.

It is my second day, I guess. I don't take my meals for the whole day today. I don't feel like it. I can barely eat anything. My stomach is full without eating anything. But I do drink water. I talked to Ipah, my classmate when I was in high-school. She validated my feeling. Yes, I should feel sad. It is valid. My feelings are valid. I know it might take time to heal, ugh again. I need to go to heal myself again? It is okay, I need to enjoy this phase. This sad phase. 

I plan, but He really decides. 

When something I dearly love didn't work out, I lose myself in the process. I do question the qadr. Why this is happening to me? Am I don't deserve to be loved? When I will be loved? Why everyone is dating here and there but not me? I get frustrated and tired. 

I will try to let my heart trust in His plans. I will learn the true meaning of tawakkul.

Once you understand the meaning of tawakkul, you will definitely be okay with things that are not working out the way you wanted them to be.

I need to learn to accept that sometimes, what my heart wants is not good for me. As time passes by, I can only give myself the assurance that everything is already written and I should trust his timing, for he made everything beautiful - in his perfect time.

All in His time.

Iffah Nadiah, you will be fine. Inshaallah. 

You are stronger than you think.

Signing off, 
Iffah xx. 

I am sad, I do

Hi everyone. 

It's me again.

I thought I am in love yet I am getting ready for another heartbreak. I am well prepared isnt it? Iffah, come on this is not your first time. You can handle a two years heartbreak, I am so sure this time you could do better. I really hope that he gets his best. Thank you so much for those two months, I am beyond grateful and happy. I never felt that good. Ya, even for a while. Thank you so much. I would not find another, I promise to myself. It was nice meeting you after all. I really had a good times. 

As times passed by, you cannot bring everything that you have today to your future. You have to choose, even though the decision is hard. But trust me, it will be better to decide now other than you regret later. We are human, we made mistakes, we do confuse. That is why we need to go back to Allah, He needs to know everything. Literally everything. 

I am glad I told him everything about you. He knows me well. He knows me better. He knows the best. I can't wait for my future endeavors.

I would be lying if I say I am not sad, but that is what the consequences that I have to take. Feeling sad. He is fair. I know my sadness today will bring happy tears in future. I believe that there must be a reason why we knew and met each other. Where did I find the courage to go to meet you even though it was my first time meeting man that I knew online. He must prepare something for me forward. 

I guess that is all. 

See you later. 

Wan

 Assalamualaikum, wan.

I know you can't read this. But at least I will reread this later. I just wanna make sure that I won't forget you. All of the sacrifices made to take care of me together with adik-adik. Thank you wan. Kakak rindu wan sangat. I know nothing will change even if I am crying a river of tears. 

I never have a chance to say thanks appropriately. The last time we met was when I went to your house, eating laksa. Nenek's laksa was so good and will always be. We never knew that was the last time we ate together kan? Few months after you passed away, you came into my dream. You were wearing white cloak and smiled. From afar. I wished that you would say something. I wished. 

Kakak selalu ingat wan. Even nenek always talk about you. Kakak selalu juga call nenek, jumpa. Adik kan cucu favorite wan? For years, kakak baru sedar, we dont have any picture together. Ada, once wan jadi 'penghulu' dalam projek sejarah kakak. But I couldn't find the picture. Kakak harap, I have a chance to visit your grave. Tapi kalau kakak taknak balik macam mana? Kalau kakak nangis teruk macam mana? Mesti nenek pun nangis jugak kan. 

Nenek baru balik beli laksa dengan adik. Adik dah besar dah, jadi baby besar. Ada ke patut diorang jalan pergi kedai kak mira? Padahal nenek ada tiga motor, semua taknak guna. Nenek kata payah, tinggila, lecehla. Takpun dia boleh je tunggu kakak balik sekolah, tapi mengada takmau. Kakak dah besar, lagi dua tahun dah nak jadi cikgu. You must be proud. Dulu wan hantar ambik kakak sekolah. Tiap kali kakak pergi sekolah, teringat masa wan ambil, bunyi motor wan kan kuat. Lama mana pun kakak nak keluar, mesti wan tunggu. Lepastu kita pergi beli keropok kan? Wan kena tunggu lagi. HAHA.

Kakak tak pernah ada masa untuk tulis ni. Pernah ada tapi tak tertulis, mesti teresak. Even now, I still do but better than before. Untuk 19 tahun, terima kasih wan. Wan dengan nenek pergi mana-mana pun mesti ingat kitorang. Kalau pergi mana-mana mesti cakap kakak ni cucu. 

Kakak sayang wan. Wan doakan kakak tau. Kakak tak larat dah nak tahan mata ni. HAHA <3

Unsolved problem

There is something wrong with me lately. Everything feels not right. Literally, EVERYTHING. I can’t find out where the missing pieces are. Missing home? I met my family last Friday. I’m not too attached to home, or else it can’t be this early. Missing tokwan? Probably, yes.

I wonder how Cik Ya encountered this kind of feeling when she was in uni. Siblings? Friends? Or partner? Cik Ya’s mom died when she was young. I really wanted to know how she was able to manage all this. I need shoulder to cry on. To let my heart out. I poured my heart out to Aini but only half of it. HALF. The burden didn’t decrease. Should I call umi?

YALL, IM LISTENING TO SAD SONGS MADE ME CRY EVEN HARDER.

It will be weird. I never told umi any of my problems. Not only umi but family. Pretend that I’m strong, nothing happened. That’s my skill.

Should I tell tokwan? Does she will understand me? I don’t think so. I don’t even know where to start. What if she asks this and that? What should I reply? Too much in my mind. I’m tired enough.

I shouldn’t think of others more than myself. I am important to me. I’ve handled it all alone all these times. Why not today?

bloom and die

You planted the seeds in me,

it grew and bloom perfectly,

who knows it exist?

yet doesnt last long.

You let the flowers dry,

day by day passed with thirst,

waiting for you to come back,

but you never.

The time has come,

maybe you accidently plant the seed,

maybe you never wanted to take care of the plant,

maybe you lose the energy,

at least it once bloomed,

thus need to start from one, 

again. 

Iffah, 20/01/2023

Weekend spent well

 Assalamualaikum and hi everyone.

Arrived in KL after two hours driving from Bera. Apparently, ayah didn't tell umi that I was going back all alone driving. Not so far i guess yet better to have a driver hiks. What so different with this post? I'll attach some photos that I took throughout my so called weekend. 

Chose to wear dark outfit paired with white tudung and it turned out to be so soft and cute. Like, hey look at me, im so pretty vibe. Stopped by at Petronas Genting Sempah to top up my tng card and straight up heading to UIA to have my very first meal. Didn't take my breakfast cause im afraid that I will vomit and feel dizzy while driving. 

   

Makan dengan apak and mirul dekat Mahallah Ali. Having my nasi mandy but the taste was average. I would rate it 6/10 ? Still cant beat ayah de's cooks. We were talking about something for quite long time, catching up to each others' life, seeking for solutions and making some jokes to counter one another. Waiting for anis to come and we both leave UIA around 6.30 p.m. 

Last minute plan, we went to Immersio Telekom Museum in the heart of the city. IT WAS SUPER FUN! We picked up ecah and ain in front of LRT Masjid Jamek and went together. The more the merrier. and IT WAS!!! I took lots of picture *for instagram purpose* since I just deactivated mine few weeks ago. 

Planned to go to this museum before we went back to our hometown but couldnt bcs lrt rosak. 

Okay sampai sini je, it has been a month after the day i went there. 

Daily update #nov25

 Salam and hi everyone.

Tomorrow is going to be the day that I go back to IPBA. A little bit sad because I couldn't spend so much time with my family this weekend. Plus, going to KL alone will be a new experience to me. Nothing much to do on tomorrow, planning to pickup Anis at KL Sentral and going to have lunch. Yet, it's already 12:30am and I haven't pack up my stuff. 

A bit worried since my Myvi's condition isn't good. Luckily, abang checked everything last evening so things are well-prepared. Honestly, I know nothing about car. Thinking to have a boyfriend at 20 but being left alone as a single. Ya the time will come but we don't know when. One day, you will read this, okay boyfriend. hiks

Love will come on its own. You don't have to plan. Just get ready and prepare yourself.

 Oh new update, alhamdulillah DSAI appointed as Malaysia 10th Prime Minister. I really hope that in three years time (as I go out for posting), our MoE will be good. There must be a better change for our education. 

I think that's all for now. 

Ciao <3

Posted this after a month

After few months, I made it. terima kasih sebab cari orang lain. terima kasih sebab jawab jujur bila i tanya. you always be my favourite chapter. tapi I minta maaf, I tak mampu untuk tak bencikan you. I terlalu sakit. you were my first love. I selalu berangan, "I have loved you since we were 18". haha. tapikan, I penat benci you, penat deny apa yang diorang kata, penat tipu diri sendiri. apakan daya, it helps me to heal. That is my coping mechanism. 

I never fell in love, but when I fall, I fall hard. so hard. yet, I fell till I didn't realize that you were temporary. sedih kan I? I never felt how so called true love is. I thought we were meant together, but we never know how it will be. takdir kan? I redha, takpe. I faham. you orang baik. you selalu tegur I bila salah. you sabar bila I ajak gaduh. cuma kisah kita bukan apa yang I nak.  

Honestly, I never move on. I je sayang you, I je suka you. I benci you, sebab I malu sangat. bila ingat balik, how stupid i was, i am very sad. rupanya I bertepuk sebelah tangan je you. sikit-sikit I learn untuk kenal orang lain tapi I takut things happen twice. I teringat how we started to talk? kelakar kan I. padahal I je yang rasa semua tu, tapi i pula yang tak boleh nak move on sangat. 

I doakan you yang terbaik. I doa you tak tinggal solat, sentiasa berbakti dekat mummy papa along. I minta maaf sebab perasaan ni ada. 

I tak kisah kalau orang baca, sebab I aware that one day my friends will find out about this blog juga. Biarlah orang tahu, orang tahu yang you tak jahat, kita tak jahat. The timing was wrong. Last time, we were not ready to commit in any relationship. 

23/10/22

3 years after

 Assalamualaikum, hi everyone.

Alhamdulillah I'm doing good so far. Too many things happened past three years so that I could not share everything here. I would never forget how much this blog means to me. I believe that everyone has gone through their very own journey to survive, to be who they are now. 

Past few years, wan passed away (al-fatihah). May he be at peace in the life hereafter and Allah bless his soul. You were one of the kindest souls that I ever met in my life. I learnt that nothing in this world are remain forever. Your absent taught me that pure love exist. You never leave nenek alone, bring her here and there. 

Thank you Wan for everything. 

- Kakak

Living with toxic ||

Finally.
My four years suffering with those toxic and im survived.
Thank you for those existing.
You tought me to live this life. a lot.

You are toxic.
Your jokes are harsh.
Yes, it hurts me inside.
I may laugh but not here.
Deep down, im sad.
I feel that im bad.

I know, im not that bad.
Im just fine.
Nobody care,
I still could stand on my own,
me and only me.

s u n s h i n e t a l k s #1

Day by day,

hour by hours,

I still waiting,

10 minutes left,

and nothing happens.

Inner me,

I'm sad,

But it's okay.

We may over here,

right here,

right now.

For all my wrongdoings,

I'm sorry,

thank you for cheer up my day

making memories

be the best part of my life

even for a while.

I couldn't keep all of these shits,

I'm hurt

I'm broke

I get jealous,

I can't handle my emotions,

Again, I'm sorry.

Loves and hugs,

Ned.

HIATUS

I'm sorry for being hiatus for whole five month. 

Wish me luck for PT3 candidates in October.
*will be update after candidates.

sincerely,

IffahNadiah

The Hostel Life #1

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Assalamualaikum and hello peeps!

After few weeks without any posts, I'm here again. Even this entry is not will be so super duper intresting story, iduncare. This is my life. As a student in a big school. 

🙋 Hows my hostel life in about 3 years? (2015-2017)

So far not bad. not bad. Im fall in💕 with my hostel life. Memanglah waktu form1 senior2 akan cerita kat kau berjuta cerita hantu asrama, tapi kalau kau amal al-mulk, ayat kursi, alfatihah, 3qul tu inshaallah nothing bad will happens. Tawakkal tu bulatkan, jangan bagi kemek sikit pun. Kalau malas sangat nak baca almulk tu pun atleast lah kan, atleast ayatkursi tu ingat.

Then time form2, in febuary I went to my new school somewhere far from my house. Ya Allah sis makin jauh dengan rumah😖 Tapi kan pasal belajar tu, pergi jelah. Why I am moving to another school? Sekolah lama takbest eh? Bukan begitu🙊 Quite funny and I am really appreciate for those who stand behind me by thick and thin. wee wee. I miss you guys you know? 

So, now I'm in form3. YA ALLAH SIS DAH NAK PT3🙀 Sempat lagi blogging? Tak takut ke kak PT3? Okay nak klise or ikhlas dari hati punya answer? Klise? Okay, if klise Ill say that everyone in Malaysia who was born in 2002 will feel afraid to face PT3 unless theyre the genius one, so no prob en? Tapi kalau yang ikhlas dari hati yang paling dalam yang tak tahu ceruk mana tu 😝 school is sekolah, home is cuti. ayat ni masih boleh digunapakai lagi untuk adik-adik yang nak exam tu selagi belum tiba bulan 6. okay? 

Kenapa sebelum bulan 6? Sebab takkan nak tinggal lagi seminggu baru nak struggle gila shiput kot kan?At least paling tak pun empat bulan before pun okaylahkan nak refresh semua bab dari form1 untill form3. 

I hope this year will be the memoriable year to me and my friends ofc,💨 Semoga kita dapat results yang flying colours belaka yaa.. Inshaallah semua straight As. mihmih. 

 Berangan kan free, so why kita kena bersusah payah untuk tidak verangan. Tapi kalau hangpa berangan sampai langit bulan bintang meteor segalanya pun takde usaha its nothing jugak kan.

Man jadda wa jadda👏 Siapa berusaha dia berjaya.

Okay, I lost all my words now. Inshaallah, panjang umur I'll sambung balik for my next post. Assalamualaikum, bye lucky people! 💖

With love,

Iffah Nadiah

These two crazy girls!

Assalamualaikum and hello peeps!

2016 is about to end and I want to say thank you for those who helped me a lot in my homeworks. Chewahhh! Okay whatever.

So, today I met my two crazy friends and we're going to 'pasar' together. haha. 

👆👆 okay so true!

They keep calling me 'gemuk' but its okay sebab gemuk kan comel. Ha kau hado?? cheesekek betul.

Left; Aliah, me, Yaya

I love this picture because my face looked tembam plus gemuk bila duduk tengah-tengah crazy aliens ni. hek.

incomplete. Ninaaaa lost.

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Okay, to all best friends out there please appreciate your best friends because they are free counselors. No matter the issue, they are there to listen to you vent.

Stay tunes for the next blog post peeps!

#TheSunAlwaysShinesAfterTheStorm

with love ❤

👀 Iffah Nadiah

Frozen GIFs - Elsa -

Assalamualaikum and hi everybody!

Alhamdulillah my last year examination just ended last thursday. So I'm free with homeworks , weeha.  Today I would like to give you this freebies. Siapa yang die-hard-fan Frozen tu bolehlah ambil ni tepek kat blog tu. 

*P/S ; All of above are not mine. 

Credits ; Mr Google

Giveaway Shade Dough by Hanis Zalikha

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Assalamualaikum and hello great people!

What is Shade Dough?

Pengasas bagi Shade Dough ini adalah Hanis Zalikha. Akan launch pada 1 NOV 2016. Shade dough ini mempunyai lima pilihan warna iaitu creme caramel, sugar icing, pepper posh, rose taffy dan berry blanched. Harga bagi 1 pcs shade dough ini adalah RM55 sahaja. Shade dough ini adalah jenis matte lip cream. Long lasting, does not smudge and does not crack. Juga mengandungi ekstrak vitamin C yang bagus untuk bibir. 

Do follow their instagram Shade Dough by Hanis Zalikha

MY BORED RANDOM KINDNESS STORY

Random kindness. Sejujur-jujurnya, Iffah Nadiah ni takdelah baik sangat orangnya. Cuma namapun manusia, bukan alien. Mesti ada kebaikan,en. So, this is one of my RANDOM KINDNESS. ececeh.

Cerita ni dah berlalu dalam 8 bulan lepas. Tak lama sangat kot. Waktu nak pindah dekat sekolah baru, I gave my favourite 'bantal' strawberry merah petak dah ada garisan terkoyak dekat one of my friends. Sedih tau awak, takpe kita bagi satu barangan kita yang paling sayang. Bantal peneman setia tidur dekat asrama. Kira tak boleh tidur kalau takde bantal tu. I owned bantal tu since about 8 years ago. Sayang kot. Okay tkpa demi kawan *ececeh* dan kebetulan kita nak pindah en. Mula-mula dari dorm, disebabkan ramai askar yang datang, so they ask to bring my stuffs. Bila sampai kat kereta, she asks me "Iffah nak bantal ni, boleh? ", Jadi dengan spontan without any thinking I said yes. Tak menyesal pun okey. I just still remembering my moments with that bantal. haha. tetiba je. Kepada awak tuan baru bantal petak merah strawberry tu, jaga bantal tu elok-elok dan ingatlah kawan awak yang baik hati ni ye bila tengok dua bijik strawberry dekat bantal tu. ily.

Itu pun Iffah dah rasa cukup baik sebab tu khazanah yang ada semasa tidur. haks. 

INSTAGRAM; @iffah.nd

With love,

IffahNadiah

Novel Giveaway by Arrien Amani

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Assalamualaikum and hye great people!

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Arrien Amani kembali lagi dengan Giveaway terbaru! novel giveaway. Mencari hanya 3 orang pemenang bertuah, Pemenang top referrel akan mendapat 2 buah novel, manakala 2 orang pemenan lagi akan dipilih random dan akan mendapat 1 novel seorang, Semua pemenang boleh memilih novel kesukaannya. Jom ramai-ramai memeriahkan giveaway ini ^^

I'm sure novel lovers out there will love this awesome giveaway. So, dont waste your time with messy things and lets join this giveaway.  

With love,

IffahNadiah