Daily update #nov25

 Salam and hi everyone.

Tomorrow is going to be the day that I go back to IPBA. A little bit sad because I couldn't spend so much time with my family this weekend. Plus, going to KL alone will be a new experience to me. Nothing much to do on tomorrow, planning to pickup Anis at KL Sentral and going to have lunch. Yet, it's already 12:30am and I haven't pack up my stuff. 

A bit worried since my Myvi's condition isn't good. Luckily, abang checked everything last evening so things are well-prepared. Honestly, I know nothing about car. Thinking to have a boyfriend at 20 but being left alone as a single. Ya the time will come but we don't know when. One day, you will read this, okay boyfriend. hiks

Love will come on its own. You don't have to plan. Just get ready and prepare yourself.

 Oh new update, alhamdulillah DSAI appointed as Malaysia 10th Prime Minister. I really hope that in three years time (as I go out for posting), our MoE will be good. There must be a better change for our education. 

I think that's all for now. 

Ciao <3

Posted this after a month

After few months, I made it. terima kasih sebab cari orang lain. terima kasih sebab jawab jujur bila i tanya. you always be my favourite chapter. tapi I minta maaf, I tak mampu untuk tak bencikan you. I terlalu sakit. you were my first love. I selalu berangan, "I have loved you since we were 18". haha. tapikan, I penat benci you, penat deny apa yang diorang kata, penat tipu diri sendiri. apakan daya, it helps me to heal. That is my coping mechanism. 

I never fell in love, but when I fall, I fall hard. so hard. yet, I fell till I didn't realize that you were temporary. sedih kan I? I never felt how so called true love is. I thought we were meant together, but we never know how it will be. takdir kan? I redha, takpe. I faham. you orang baik. you selalu tegur I bila salah. you sabar bila I ajak gaduh. cuma kisah kita bukan apa yang I nak.  

Honestly, I never move on. I je sayang you, I je suka you. I benci you, sebab I malu sangat. bila ingat balik, how stupid i was, i am very sad. rupanya I bertepuk sebelah tangan je you. sikit-sikit I learn untuk kenal orang lain tapi I takut things happen twice. I teringat how we started to talk? kelakar kan I. padahal I je yang rasa semua tu, tapi i pula yang tak boleh nak move on sangat. 

I doakan you yang terbaik. I doa you tak tinggal solat, sentiasa berbakti dekat mummy papa along. I minta maaf sebab perasaan ni ada. 

I tak kisah kalau orang baca, sebab I aware that one day my friends will find out about this blog juga. Biarlah orang tahu, orang tahu yang you tak jahat, kita tak jahat. The timing was wrong. Last time, we were not ready to commit in any relationship. 

23/10/22

3 years after

 Assalamualaikum, hi everyone.

Alhamdulillah I'm doing good so far. Too many things happened past three years so that I could not share everything here. I would never forget how much this blog means to me. I believe that everyone has gone through their very own journey to survive, to be who they are now. 

Past few years, wan passed away (al-fatihah). May he be at peace in the life hereafter and Allah bless his soul. You were one of the kindest souls that I ever met in my life. I learnt that nothing in this world are remain forever. Your absent taught me that pure love exist. You never leave nenek alone, bring her here and there. 

Thank you Wan for everything. 

- Kakak